I stood there in complete disbelief. I’d been working all day and now here I was completely struggling to get home. I had made it to the first station on my long (65 minutes) journey home only to be confronted by a crowd of people. My blood was beginning to boil a little bit and I could tell my stress levels were higher already.
I quickly made an adjustment and jumped on a crowded bus. We drove just a few hundred feet before coming to a major standstill. Again my stress levels were at max. I got off the bus and found myself at another train station.
It was completely packed. I hated having so many people so close to me and be dealing with this frustrating journey home. All at the same time was difficult for me. I wanted to reach for anything to help me feel better.
But, I’m glad that I didn’t. I’ve been sober now for 6+ years and I couldn’t imagine threatening that. I know what you’re going through though and how hard these types of situations might be.
In fact, in past times, I may have come home and poured myself a drink. I see many people having a smoke right after they get off the trains too.
The thing is though, you don’t have to feel like this. You can break free of these kinds of addictions. It isn’t easy and you do need someone to guide you through your recovery.
Without a guide, plan or approach to recovery, it’s going to be close to impossible. The exact method I used for my recovery forms the basis for everything we do at Live Rehab. We’ve built courses around all kinds of things like alcohol, opiates and smoking to help people.
When I finally did get home, I didn’t have to worry about pouring a drink or lighting up a smoke. But I do remember that feeling. I think I always will. In many respects, these feelings help us to remember what we’re fighting for. Is it possible that the feelings can be used to keep us sober?
Nick – Chief Recovery Strategist